Friday, August 12, 2005

Higher Planes





Digging deep into my mind, I've found a strong desire to learn many things. I'm not sure if these are gifts only given to chosen people. Or if they're things that one can learn or train their mind to do. For example: I wish to learn to hear my higher self. I want to learn astral projectory, though I'm a little afraid of that one. I want to know peace and calm, and maybe that one will just come with age. I want to learn to control pain. So you see, there are many things I want to know. I read books of people claiming to know these things, but how do you know if you can trust them or not? I'm not very trusting of others when it comes to my mind. I do believe, though, that there are those out there whom have mastered their mind and can teach this to others. My next question is, how do you find them?

I very, very rarely dream. The other night was one of those rare experiences. I'm not sure if it was only a dream, however. I had a vision of a plane of bodiless beings. It was a place among the stars. There was no need for a physical body, their being was higher than that. I wasn't made aware of their purpose or reason for being. But I was left with a feeling of familiarity and closeness. Was this just a dream? Or, was it a plane of consciousness making itself known and available to me? I'm not sure.

I am a very analytical person by nature. I can never just accept anything given to me to be the truth. I just don't trust the human mind that way. However, I get the feeling that this was not of human creation. I usually appreciate my ablity to think things through to a better understanding. Though lately it seems to be more of a shortcoming than a gift. So, I'm going to stop here for now. Trying to prevent thinking myself into an unhelpful circle. Feedback is both welcome and appreciated.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

WHY?x30=WEIRD

I look in the mirror and ask myself why,
why?
I woke up to day and asked myself why,
why?
I again went to a job I complain about daily and asked myself why,
why?
Today I worried and feared the dream and asked myself why,
why?
My father didn't love me, but I still love my son and ask myself why,
why?
I see a homeless man, it causes me pain, and I ask myself why,
why?
I feel guilty when in the presence of my mother and as myself why,
why?
I feel ashamed when I eat for enjoyment and ask myself why,
why?
I love my wife yet I can love another and ask myself why,
why?
I enjoy material possessions and ask myself why,
why?
I love my friends as I hate them and ask myself why,
why?
I don't dream in my sleep, but sleep in my dream and ask myself why,
why?
People praise God then kill their neighbor and I ask myself why,
why?
I see the world's beauty, and feel it's disgust and as myself why,
why?
Today is yesterday and tomorrow today and I ask myself why,
why?
I was born and I'll die, and ask myself why,
why?
I write these thoughts and ask myself why,
why?
I ask the question why,
why?
Say the word why ten more times and it'll seem weird,
why?
Do this with all things we know and it'll seem weird, then ask yourself
why?