How long is the road, really?

How long do we stay on this road called life? How many past lives have we lived in which we've traveled the same road? This question sparks a lot thought in my mind. I understand so much in this world, most of which I have not experience in this incarnation. I understand the minds of murderers, victims, rich, poor, old, young. I can see life from the perspective of many. There's no reason for it other than I may have lived lives in such situations. Have you ever been attracted to something, or interested in something, with no real explanation as to why? So many days I feel that way, so many days.

I feel, and have felt for a long time, that my days on this road will come to a close with this lifetime. I have one major struggle, one that puts all others possible aside. How to put aside the human mind, and live by the higher self. Since a kid I could always tell that there were two sides to my being, just didn't understand it. Neither did anybody else for that matter. Most things in life have never really made much sense to me, because I understand them so well. I've been told I was stupid because I did poorly in school. Only because I had no interest in it. I've been told that I have mental problems that can't be corrected. I've come to the conclusion that I don't function well in this world because I am not of this world. My sould does not resonate here. There are places better for me to experience my true being. It's funny though, the human will to "survive" is really strong. My soul wants to be free even more, though.

Take a look at your life more closely. Look for the deeper meaning, your truth. Where have you been, what have you seen? It's not for me to hear, it's for you to experience. You can learn more from looking inside than you could in any school, or from any professor with any amount of degrees. Life lessons cannot be learned in a classroom. A souls progression cannot be made by reading a book. Your spirits desire to be free cannot be subdued by medication. And I cannot be held down by any state of "normality". Take a look, and I'm sure you'll be surprised. How long is the road you've traveled? How long is it really?